Tuesday, January 11, 2011

The View From My Front Door

Red sky

“Red sky in the morning, sailor take warning.”

I was all prepared to write a post today about the forecasted storm that is due to hit tonight.  When I saw the beautiful rose colored sunrise this morning-I thought of that old weather forecasting adage and opened my front door to take a picture.

But about an hour later, a scene much closer to my heart played out.

Every morning when Amy leaves for school I see her to the front door and I send her on her way with a hug and a kiss and a  “Have a good day!  See you soon!  I love you!”  We wave to each other for the first block or so, and somewhere in there I even blow a kiss to her and she blows one back to me.

This morning, at the same time  Amy was walking down the front porch steps and I was seeing her off, a big high school aged boy walked by.

And at this moment I knew what it means to know and understand and love your child enough to let them do what they need to do-and not be hurt.

Amy crossed the street and walked-never looking back for a wave or a blown kiss.  And I was completely ok with that-and in fact I would have been surprised if she had turned back.

Of all the years of being a parent, these are the hardest ones for me-because I am preparing Amy to be able to go out into the world on her own.  Her eventual ability to do that  means I will have done my job well.  (And yes, there are a lot of private tears on my part these days.)

I keep watching Amy walk this morning-pondering these many thoughts that fill my head.   And then- just when she is almost out of sight- I see her turn and wave, before she rounds the corner and is gone from my view.

“Have a good day! See you soon!  I love you!”


  1. I have a feeling that Amy will always turn back and wave goodbye with love, no matter who's there to see. What a sweet morning routine you have :)

  2. Thanks Joanne, being a mom can be so bittersweet, but I wouldn't change a thing:)
    Thank you for all of your wonderful comments too-I really, really appreciate it!

  3. Oh Valerie, this brought a lump to my throat. My daughter is nearing middle school age (next year) and her maturity is really starting to show. I can no longer give her kisses in public...but I can live with that as long as I can give her a kiss at home!

    It's so incredibly tough to be a parent. But I still love it!

  4. I know exactly what you mean Melissa. My daughter is 15,and these years are so important-they need us as much-if not more than when they were little, but I think we are doing our jobs as mothers well!

    Thanks for all your comments too-I appreciate them so much!!

  5. What a touching post. The bond between a mother and a daughter is so precious.

  6. Thanks Tina. That is so true. Amy has truly taught me the meaning of unconditional love.

    And thank you for the comments you leave on my blog-they mean a lot!