I was going through several boxes of photographs the other day, looking for a picture to use in another post, and I found this snapshot of myself, taken more than a few years ago. Those sunglasses!
I remember how much I hated my hair at the time. I always felt like I had an unruly octopus on my head. And I also remember my attempts to tame my hair, with blow dryers and hairspray, short haircuts and wind tunnel tested gel.
Last fall, I decided to quit fighting my hair and embrace it for what it is. I gave up all of my attempts to make it look like I thought it should look, and now, it pretty much looks like a slightly shorter version of my hair in the picture. And I’m ok with that.
I’ve come full circle-learning to live with the very thing I hated in the beginning. And not only live with, but love too. That’s some octopus, after all.
I’m trying to apply the same strategy to my life. I know when I was in my late 20’s, I started to dwell on certain personality traits that I did not like in myself and wished to change. For instance, I’m fairly introverted, I’m not much of a risk taker, or a “mover and shaker,” I don’t always speak up for myself when I should, and so on. When I would compare myself to women who had those qualities that I lacked, I fell short, and the old self esteem would take a nose dive.
But I want to come full circle with myself, and I think I am finally getting there. Embracing my quirks and learning to appreciate the qualities that make me, well, me.
Embracing who we are-and our strengths and weaknesses, is something we all deserve to do. I think part of the reason I’ve decided to try harder to appreciate myself is that I have a daughter who is now 16, and I don’t want her to ever feel that who she is isn’t good enough.
So, in conclusion to my little pep talk today, I ask you: Where are you in your journey? I’m hoping for a lot of full circles.